im feeling so lost
been missing you
feeling down
and no one to turn to

i want to go back to last time
when i can just talk to you
and you dont get angry with me
or make me tear
but i know things won't be the same again

things are broken
feelings are mixed up
trust is no longer there
hopes are gone

i really wish we can patch things up
but i know
no matter how we try
things will not be as wonderful anymore

i look at my girlfriends
see how happy they are
see how their boys treat them
only happiness
pamper them
ensuring them about the future
letting the girls throw tantrum at them
but not the other way round

you give me sadness
and insecurity
how would i trust you again?
i don't want to live in worries everyday
thinking of you lost money again
worry if you took the money for our baby's education to gamble

no matter how much i love you
we all still live in the world of reality
where love doesn't feed the kids

i'm no longer looking for a burning hot love
all i want now is security and a husband material

i seriously don't know what to do anymore