happiness

i've been wanting to say this a long time ago.
but i wasn't certain, and i just didn't want to sound like i didn't mean it

i guess i am happy now
and i have been happy
that i'm finally on the right track of my life

past few years were really a show
i haven't been living the way i wanted to live
i just didn't realize it
that those things that i used to go after
those things that i used to do
and some people who i used to hang out with
they all don't make up the life that i truly wanted

all the partying
the dressing up
looking pretty
designer bags
are all for show
it's like putting up a show for people to watch
people that i don't even really like
i can say that out of all the bags that i own
i only truly like some, just a few of them

for the past few months
i've led a different approach to live my life
and to see the world
i now appreciate the little finer things in life
relationships with dear ones
the beauty of nature
the peace and serenity of mind
simplicity in most of the things
humanity
and how to live like a human

i cook, i bake, and i do things for my loved ones
i apply for a job, and i got one now
i give my love, instead of just receiving

i guess i can safely say that i am happy now